Have you ever been pushed to the point where your faith was shaken? Where things became so difficult and overwhelming that you began to doubt God? I’m here to tell you that you are not alone; you are just like Peter, myself, and millions of other people in the world today.
In case you were curious, here we see Peter talking to Jesus:
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” He said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” He said, “why did you doubt?”
I have felt like Peter… There was a time when I thought I could not go to college… I was filled with so many doubts my senior year. How could I go to college? How would I pay for it? Could I even get into the school of my dreams (Texas A&M)? I was drowning in questions I could not find answers to. Because of my doubts, I decided I would stay in my hometown and attend a community college since it was all I could afford. Thankfully, God brought the right people into my life to open up my eyes and show me that I was selling myself short. I realized I was capable of so much more, so I applied and was accepted to Texas A&M. It was great, but then came the next problem. How could I afford 20k a year? I had enough hope to remain in faith but time passed and I was not any closer to knowing how I would pay for school. Faithfully, God would come through for me again; at the very end of my senior year my counselor and a woman from the administration building brought me scholarships to apply for – some due the day I received them. To my surprise, I received 3 last minute scholarships; it was seriously a miracle. I knew it was God – He had not given up on me – He had not forsaken me. It was by His grace and love that I received everything I needed to attend my dream school.
My story does not end there. Once I started school at Texas A&M I was filled with doubt once again… Was I even smart enough to make it? I remember telling this lady at work that I was going to fail out of college. I did not even know how to study properly! She just laughed at me and told me I was crazy. So I prayed and asked God to help me make it through college… Again, He came through and I ended my freshman year with a 4.0 gpa. I remember the day my freshman year ended I was just bawling. I had tears of joy because God had helped me overcome every obstacle that crossed my path. I had successfully completed my freshman year, and in that moment I knew that with God first I would finish the 3 remaining years. After all, He did not allow me to go Texas A&M just to fail. I had a purpose and He had placed the desire to finish in my heart. I am now happy to say that it has been 7 months since I graduated with my bachelors degree in MIS from one of the best business schools: Mays. It was hard, but my Father in heaven led my every step and made sure I was equipped with everything that I needed and more.
It amazes me when I think of the countless times God has provided for me, sent me the right people, or given me the strength to make it through difficult times. He has never failed me, and I wish He could say the same for me. However, I know that He sees my efforts and that He sees the many times I have remained in faith and trusted Him. It is not always easy, and it took me a while to grasp this concept but I am thankful that I have learned how to grow through my faith. I know God’s looking down at me and is proud.
You may be going through something, waiting for a miracle, or asking God for a sign… Whatever it may be, all I will ask of you is to have faith as small as a mustard seed and walk by faith. Here’s what Jesus has to say:
He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.
Here’s one more thing to remember:
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.