I know, I know, it is biologically impossible to be fatherless. However, the type of father I’m talking about is the one that is there to wipe your tears, discipline you, and tuck you in at night. Not everyone on earth has experienced the type of father I’m referring to, but they can if they want to. How you may ask? Simply put: Jesus is a Father to the fatherless.
It’s funny because for so long I cried over a man who could never love me like my Father in heaven does. I grew up not knowing who my biological father until I turned 14 and decided to find out who he was. That’s right, I searched and found him. Unfortunately, he wasn’t the knight in shining armor that I imagined he would be. Instead of being a father to me, he left me with empty promises and a broken heart.
For years I was filled with sadness because my biological father had another family with his wife. I wanted so badly to be a part of his family but he never picked up my calls. I remember his wife inviting me to my half sister’s quinceañera party, but I could not get myself to go. I was filled with so much hurt, it would have broken my heart to see my father do the father-daughter dance with her. After all, I was convinced she had it so good because she had my father.
Turns out, I was the lucky one. About three months ago my half sister Julie stayed with me for a few days and I learned so much about her life during that time. This past July she was hospitalized in a coma due to a terrible watercraft collision in which my nephew passed. It was so heartbreaking, I cried for weeks and was just so grateful to get another moment with her. She is one of the strongest souls I have ever met.
I will spare the details of her personal life but there’s one thing you should know: my father is not the best person on this earth. In fact, he has lied and hurt many people (myself included). My sister is a much stronger person today because of everything she has gone through and has not let her circumstances break her. I’m so proud of her and I admire her for not letting this world harden her heart.
I used to get so angry with God for not allowing me to have my biological father, but I was wrong to ever doubt His will. Not having my biological father around turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I thought it was breaking my heart not having him around, but truthfully I would have been more heartbroken with him there. God saved me from a world of dissappointment. He is the greatest Father I could have ever wanted and I never missed out on a thing.
If you are ever doubting His will in your life, I urge you to trust Him. You may not see it now, in five or even ten years, but I promise you He knows what’s best for you. I will leave you with my favorite bible verse:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.